the zhaf speaks

Tuesday, April 29, 2003:

shack ah... track n bball in e same dae is rather tiring. hmm i need a few sessions of intervals to get sprintin form back, drills shud help too. n yes i need to jump higher for bball...
well chendol softee from 7-11 is damn nice, bought sum wif gab gn on e wae home todae.
thank God it's wednesdae, slack dae finishin at 1210. aniwae thurs will be holidae n i'm ponnin sch on fri wif gab i think.

do i haf a shot at a place in bball committee? hmm... do hope i get in.

hmm playin bball wif ppl like michael n rayner is damn fun. pushes me cos michael is an offensive bulwark and rayner is a shen shooter. playin wif or against dem forces me to rethink e wae i plae.

my final destination has no express train goin there, but yea strugglin to put in e effort's a bummer. no pain no gain let's go dudes...

-unshackled and unfettered he seeks power sublime- 8:57 am

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Monday, April 28, 2003:

hah i've found my sweet spot on the court. hear the net go swoosh buddies...
rox work's gettin alot easier, my fitness is back, i juz need alot alot more sleep. wish e library had sofa or sumthin

-unshackled and unfettered he seeks power sublime- 8:48 am

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Sunday, April 27, 2003:

booyah dudes! manu scrapes 2-0 against tottenham. rather uninspired plae for 2/3s of e game... aniwae as soccernet puts it... "the title is man uniteds to lose now" :)

hmm tuitioned redhuan n howard in math juz now. they reeli need e help, red wuz workin in term1, and howard wuz doin ao math (like wth rite). reeli appreciate e fact tt i actually haf a grip on my work as compared to them. aniwae had a look at tpjc's notes (red's...). alot better than rj's... and e examples r more challengin. kinda surprising tho. asked red to get me a copy of tp's math notes for e whole 2 yrs. in fact for chem bio n econs too... tp is cool cos the photocopy shop has notes for e whole yr ready... n u can juz go there n buy. haha i'll neva step in lt1 ever again... :P

played a gd game of pool, far from sublime n inspired tho. guess e key thing is to double check at every single step e first few minutes ure at e table, n when u start to crap up ure shots... posture, lining up e ball, esp impt is gd stroke contact and follow thru. red's a quick learner... only his 3rd time playin and he can make shots across e table, cushion shots, banks...

hmm i've downed almost 60g of protein todae. may seem abit maniacal but yea i'm tryin to bulk up. did a whole bunch of pushups n dips not too long ago. aching slightly now...

btw go eat shit usa. think u can fix iraq in 18 months? suck it dudes. not fixin iraq like y'all din fix afghanistan is equivalent to rape on a global scale. n yes wth man u think u can dao france juz becos they dun quite agree wif y'all... pls i mean like it's gd to be opposed to violence dammit... like u bas3rds even found any weapons of mass destructn in iraq. eat shit bush n usa.

btw i realise tt i shudn exclude boybands from e music i listen to. blue is surprisingly gd haha.

*best in me
cos' you bring out the best in me
like no one else can do
that's why i'm by your side
that's why i love you

she brought out e best in me a long time ago. i wanted it to happen wif -her-. a long time ago aniwae. now i'm glad it didn. u made me struggle, and u hardly spared a thought for my feelings, when ures were all tt mattered to me. thanx cos now i know what to steer clear of... ppl like u. yes, ppl like u.

-unshackled and unfettered he seeks power sublime- 10:58 am

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Saturday, April 26, 2003:

last night, i had a dream about you
in this dream, i'm dancing right beside you
and it looked, like everyone was having fun
the kind of feeling, i waited so long

don't stop, come a little closer
as we jam, the rhythm gets stronger
there's nothing wrong, with just a little little fun
we were dancing, all night long

the time is right, to put my arms around you
you're feeling right, you'll wrap arms around too
but suddenly, i feel the shining sun
before i knew it, this dream was all gone

oh, i don't know what to do
about this dream and you
i wish this dream comes true

oh, i don't know what to do
about this dream and you
we'll make this dream come true

daft punk-digital love

oh aerodynamic by them is pretty nice too, esp e guitar solo

-unshackled and unfettered he seeks power sublime- 9:26 am

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hmm furniture rearrangement in my room (shared wif all my bros) wuz interestin, nostalgic in fact. goin thru all my stuff... e rush of memories of ri daes, pri sch daes even... tracing my progress in history... from 12/25 in sec3 term1 to 22/25 eventually... e bdae cards i got from frens, super great ppl like rumin, xmas cards from zhengyuan, lame stuff like bdae cards i bought but neva dared to give... y i haf no idea... for fear of seemin trite? e postcards from e gals i was close to in sec sch. e letters. boy i'm sentimental.

and yes... game manuals, diablo, starcraft, quest for glory, utterly mesmerised in my earlier daes by e storylines of e games. esp loved e quest for glory roleplayin/adventure style of gamin :) played e whole series from like 7 till i wuz 16 man... wow... great experience... alwaes loved to plae e hero. e paladin who chased e demons back to their homeworld. e paladin who fought for honour. e paladin who dared to venture into e depths of hades to save a fren. yes... honour, smthin missin in dis age n time. n i look at myself and feel so very hollow.

where has e burnin idealism of earlier daes gone? it all seems so jaded now. i wanted to take myself as far as my mind heart n soul could... so yea i got into ri. wat's next? i got into rj... wat's nxt? wtf man i did almost nothin to get where i am. other ppl struggle... i've almost never needed to. other ppl deserve alot better. tim shudn haf been kicked out of rj. hongyi deserved to stay. i bloody went to orchard after every single olvl paper of mine... wat's left for me to do? it's kinda lame nowadaes. sch is mostly sleepin in e library, or in class, tokin to ppl in canteen or bball. i think i've sed it bfore tt i create the meanin in my life. guess i'm not very creative den :P i'm in a rut n i'll get out of it. juz need to feel abit of challenge now. now i understand how it can feel smtimes when u come across as too easy n loose to another person. like, where's e fun in an easy catch?

haha in but several minutes i've gone from feelin like sai to... pretty happy...
i shall pia my bball. all out assault on e 9 minute 2.4km barrier. preparation for nats nxt yr starts now...
if there's one thing tt'll neva put me off... tt is almost impossible to procrastinate abt... it's bball. realised how much bball is part of me. shud haf joined earlier :) but yea now's better than later i guess

self-analysis of your own thoughts. astoundin wat cognitive capacity e human brain possesses. even more astoundin is how stupid e human race can be at times. i think mebbe we shud all draw up personal constitutions. smtimes it helps to haf guidelines to adhere to. bein a participant in idiocy is when i think abt it, too self-deprecating and demeaning. den again e issue's subjective la. smtimes u can haf fun bein an idiot and not cause harm to anione or ureself either... so y not den? wud God be pissed? i forget far too often tt i e only reason i exist is cos of the guy up there. atheist detractors go ahead n mentally catalogue me as lunatic, i dun gif a shit.

-unshackled and unfettered he seeks power sublime- 9:18 am

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haha anger management is pretty hilarious stuff. rush down to e cinema n watch it... YES WATCH IT! worth every cent of e 8.50...
ha arsenal draws wif bolton... suckit man ;) man u shud win i think
fergie, sell off beckham and it's likely e whole world will condemn u to e darkest nether-regions of burning smoulderin fuckedup hell

hmm i'm sorry clara... for bein abit pissed. esp after watchin smthin like anger management :P hungry, sian, headache... e thought of gettin grilled by dad makes me crawl in my skin. hope u had a gd tok wif ng yun...

i can feel it... i'm gainin my fitness... target is sub 920 for 2.4 napfa... 6 pullups or more will do fine... but napfa aside i'm gonna improve my vertical leap. rebounds, blocks, gettin tuff shots off... need e jumpin height for that... not to mention it makes layups that much easier... i'm not sure if hittin e gym will help for leaping higher tho... considerin tt vertical leap is very fast twitch... and weights are done slowly... shall look ard for info...

math tuition wif howard n redhuan tmr... n i'm e tutor by sum amazin twist of fate. it's a gd way of catchin up wif dem since they arent in rj :) so little time, but so mani frens whom i've drifted awae from... needa catch up wif lots of dem

-unshackled and unfettered he seeks power sublime- 8:46 am

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Thursday, April 24, 2003:

haha slacking is fun. scooted off early from sch cos of a dumb lecture fiasco. ponned math lec... as i do most lects... but of all things attendance wuz taken todae. wud be chao screwed but i juz claimed to be feverish n tt i rested in e sickbay wifout permission... they bought it and i blue slipped... and yes here i am now...
haha dad picked me up from sch and we ate lunch at dis superb jap restaurant in serangoon garden... their unagi (eel) slices were bloody thick n delectable lor... abit pricey tho...
shall not be in sch tmr either... but will prob play pool in e evenin tmr :)
lectures... all of em crappy cos if i cover material on my own it's alot alot faster. n cud all u rj student drones stop copyin down stuff wifout understanding wat ure writing down...
damn i left my bball wif rayner... wanna plae now... ack crappy fugnuts man

-unshackled and unfettered he seeks power sublime- 12:17 am

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Wednesday, April 23, 2003:

once u worry less abt appearances, it feels alot better :)
once u stop bein picky wif frens, u become nicer... yep i guess
haiz u ppl i'm thru wif waitin for ure acceptance, cos u've neva had to wait for mine ^_^

nice short dae, but still tirin cos played plenty of bball after sch, and den down to esplanade for e band concert
better den i expected i muz sae... a nice mix of contemporary pieces... kudos to mononoke hime and riverdance...
and yes cut out e encores... too much and it kinda gets on ure nerves
haha sum ppl r juz so dao... pretty irritatin, bein ignored's a bummer. i vow neva to ignore anione else again!

well i like my project work grp... munyuk, daph, me, magng, yuhsin... by e looks of it i will be playin an abstract role, e idea machine, while everyone else will be doin e less palatable stuff like takin minutes, typin stuff n crap
gotta grouse wif e choice of project tasks... it reeli is very limited in scope and will take alot of time to brainstorm a passable topic.
times like these i wish i cud leave for e usa earli, bloody waste of time e kind of shit moe is throwin at us.

bball rox. dun u ever dare sae otherwise. dun u ever gif up on our team. to e j1s, take a leap of faith and till nxt yrs nationals carry it in your heart tt we will make it, and we will be a medal team nxt yr, tt we haf everything we need to boogie wif e rest!

time is tight and e countdown to e most strainin period of e yr begins... bout 3 weeks left... till e arrival of 5 or so weeks of struggle... yes it's durin e june holidaes haha n au contraire i will be bloody busy wif sumthin...

to be continued...

-unshackled and unfettered he seeks power sublime- 10:17 am

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Tuesday, April 22, 2003:

hmm i guess it's useless tryin to find e perfect timetable. well shall get out of my comfort zone, and adjust to e new screwed up timetable, screw proj work man...
change combi to trip sci? well i dun mind, but i will not settle for less than... fridae bfore 1... and 2 more daes ending before 230
haha so much for adjusting...
screw e rain todae man... got dam wet while walkin out of sch todae... even wif an umbrella... cos all e dumb vehicles drove by and splashed water on me... :P
hmm i'm inundated wif tons of unfinished stuff... shudn be a problem la... cos aniwae i've caught up wif everythin i've missed from ponnin... it's juz a matter of doin hmwk... rite i'm sure u'll do it zhafri

hmm iverson scores 55 pts... and in a playoff game. i mean, how SHEN is tt man... but i dun think 76ers will make it... e team pegs all their hopes on iverson basically... n he duzn owaes put on a gd show... tho when he duz... watch out... aniwae it isn't very clear at e moment how things in e east will turn out... in e west i think it's a toss btw lakers, kings and mavs... kinda like e mavs hehe... tho i support kobe individually (lakers suck tho...)

hmm e pool bug is biting again... i need to plae pool soon... hopefully tmr in fact... shud haf enuff time bfore band concert

ahh i'm so hungry oso... lets go lets go eat sum sushi buffet haha... shall ask gefjeonn n co tmr hehe...

but i do know one thing, no?
bitches they come they go
saturday thru' sunday, monday
monday thru' sunday yo
maybe i'll love you one day
maybe we'll someday grow
till then juz sit your trunk-ass on that fuckin runway hoe...
eminem-superman
*they call me superman, i'm here to rescue you....*

-unshackled and unfettered he seeks power sublime- 8:25 am

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Monday, April 21, 2003:

watching darren wif a bball is wonderful. he has eagle eyed court vision, bullet passes, not to mention his dribbling is rather fuckin elusive sublime n fluid. wow. i need to reach, and surpass his standard... his ball handlin is point guard style but i wanna be a small forward/shooting guard wif e best dribbling on e team...

hmm aniwae after a little thought it seems my timetable isnt as dreadful as initially thought.
mondae ends 250 (skip econs lec at end)
tues 510 (might as well since i haf trainin)
wed 1210
thurs 1030 (skip math lect, no malay, chem lect, econs lect)... mebbe shud skip sch every thurs hahaha
fridae 350 (well kinda sucky but since i usually stay in sch till bout 5 on fridaes to ball... not so bad la)

hmm sumhow my lack of sleep hasnt had any particularly debilitating effects on me... not yet aniwae. well plenty of gp chem n math tmr to sleep in... track trainin tmr... i hope my hurdlin isnt too rusty :P

haha well, sumhow things r lookin abit brighter. not tt much's changed reeli. but mebbe... e way i take it all in... e way i react... mebbe tt's changin. yea :)

friends, used to think i either i din haf enuff of dem or e ones i had werent gd enuff. now i realise tt mebbe i havent been workin on any of my frenships reeli... tts y it seemed quite shit... ah wells...

hmm can i get a place in bball committee ? i reeli reeli reeli reeli want it!!!! hope i can get on mrnah's gd side hehe

hmm i'm treadin a fine line now... still slackin as much as ever but teeterin on e edge... shud do more readin in e library when i pon lects instead of ballin or wastin time in canteen...

y do i owaes feel like it's easier to connect wif e guys from so1 n 2 den from my own class... diff frequency la sumtimes... heck man i'm tired... sum slumber is in order...

-unshackled and unfettered he seeks power sublime- 10:17 am

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Thursday, April 17, 2003:

hmm aching all over. shud go awae soon i think. mebbe stretchin will alleviate e pain abit...

haha dun feel like typing much todae. aniwae yea todae my emotions were pretty extreme... either entirely indifferent... or dam charged n angry... either pissed wif mum over how i 'never do aniting ard e hse'... like yea rite i stop one dae la... see how much more work u'll haf to do dearest mom
or abt e more guailan of e suanning i get
wonderful eh ?
aniwae bk rox... i love burger king... i've more or less condemned all other fast food joints... esp now cos bk is cheap cheap...

i need more time to go out
i detest my new timetable
i need more early days
i need to figure out more ways to pon e lessons at e day's end
for i wuz neva meant to rot my life awae in a stupid classroom

-unshackled and unfettered he seeks power sublime- 9:48 am

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Wednesday, April 16, 2003:

love e warm feelin i get when i noe i've helped sumone. even more if e person sez thx :)
hmm realise tt alot of e campaigners for council r reeli feelin' e heat. i hear only 30 or so will become councillors. seein how alot of dem haf given alot... i reeli feel for dose who wun make it thru. tt's life... we shud learn to value e journey more than e destination sumtimes i guess :P

aching all over due to track todae, we did plenty of weights. n summore i think i only did 50-60% of wat we were supp to do... oops start buckin up zhaf... realise how much i DO want to plae bball... and how much i reeli wanna hurdle again. i guess i'll gif e weekly weights dae a miss... go for e rest...

u noe sum ppl shud juz shut up. will u juz wait for me to do it bfore goin on abt how i wont... pls... n u reeli haf a problem... if u piss me off and i ignore u ure unhappy, if i swear back ure unhappy too, wat u expect me to sweettalk u into sayin sorry? eat shit

hmm chem test, read thru e notes for abit juz now, will look thru bfore i sleep and again on e wae to sch later... easy topic so A shud be manageable even if i'm never in lt1 for anitin

hmm my hair's growin quickly. still, it'll be at least 5 weeks bfore it'll be e length i want. shall find a gd hairstylist and get a pro pro cut... e kind where the hair is thinned so much it all flares up even if e hair is bloody long...

hmm it's nice runnin for track wif little pressure on me... if things go well i'll break my personal best for 400hurdles... but e final target is still e elusive 60 seconds

yes it's decided. i shall run for faction. haha mebbe it's cos i've started runnin for track again :P... relax relax dun smash e com screen... i've never tried to get involved... so yea i'll gif it a go now... and aniwae i need sum leadership stuff in my jc testimonial... realise now tt i'll prob get 4as easily... but if i dun start soon i'll be sorely lackin on e non-academic side. bummer

haha it's funny how she's built bigger den me... no it's not fat... juz big bones tt's all... well compensated by me bein taller? i duno i'm not makin headway so i'll back off. shudn take anitin seriously hehe... laid back is e wae... goin by wat ppl like shengrong n ivan sim r like... i'd prob be alot happier... :)

-unshackled and unfettered he seeks power sublime- 9:26 am

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Tuesday, April 15, 2003:

so sorry to hear bout ure grandad tim. i'm so sorry tt we all can seem so helpless at times. keep ure head up high tim, we'll make it...

hmm jc is reeli a more accurate reflection of e real-cutthroat-dog-eat-dog world tt we live in.
mebbe tt's y so many of us arent too happy where we are? well... accept it man... i think i have
wateva is i believe i will crawl out of e shit life hurls at me. i will be on top in e end. i'll keep dis in mind, n basically i'll be prepared for almost aniting.
i create e meaning in my life, and i will make jc sumthin for me n my frens to remember.

i think i'll go for track. there's a shortage of hurdlers hehe... n kinda miss hurdling :(... it'll be an uphill challenge to get back my lost fitness tho... aniwae first target is 57-58 for 400... and 64 for 400hurdles... i'll hit those n we'll see from there. drats, not much time bfore nationals...

cheer up ppl... lookin back 10 yrs from now it'll be sumthin to remember... our time here... in dis rundown rj sch compound... or whichever place ure at :)

-unshackled and unfettered he seeks power sublime- 9:20 am

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Monday, April 14, 2003:

well... my thoughts are rather garbled currently
there's been alot to think abt lately.
hmm things seem fine on e surface... but underneath... abit unsettled... isit juz me, or r alot of us lidat? n y r we lidat?

guess i haf too much free time on my hands... not gd... makes me think too much bout life... cos honestly when u look at life objectively there's alot tt duzn go rite... n it alwaes makes ya feel abit off i guess...

talked abit to howard n tim... not havin too enjoyable an experience in acjc... the rules too stifling for howard... n tim bein sumwat dissatisfied wif himself in relation to his new class... it's a struggle for dem... for all of us i guess. we only grow thru struggle, n yea i noe tt u 2 will be all e stronger n wiser at e end of it all. above all get enuff sleep man... e best remedy for lotsa stuff haha... i reeli miss e 2 of u... i miss e ppl who left rj...

i've alwaes preached tt circumstances will never be perfect, and it's nigh impossible to change dem... tt e change shud come from ourselves instead, mould ourselves to better tolerate e shit in life... but as much as i preach it... it's hard to do sumtimes dammit

-beautiful ones by suede-
high on diesel and gasoline
psycho for drum machine
shakin' their bits, to the hits

oh, drag acts, drug acts, suicides
in your dad's suits ya hide
stainin his name again

oh, cracked up, stacked up, twenty-two
psycho for sex and glue
lost it to Bostick yea

oh, shave heads, rave heads, on the pill
gotta have time to kill
get into bands and gangs

oh here they come
the beautiful ones
the beautiful ones
la la la la

here they come
the beautiful ones
the beautiful ones
la la la la....

-unshackled and unfettered he seeks power sublime- 9:14 am

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Sunday, April 13, 2003:

hmm mum's sick... so yea pitching in abit more den usual wif e hsework...
so mum went to e doctor... gd prognosis since it wuzn sars... despite fever n all

haha com's a welcome break from wat little work i've done tonite... like i sed in class bfore... i'll do e bare minimum i need to get by... it's baffling how i refuse to attend lectures, sleep in class, skive homework n still do decent... as in i havent failed aniting... but aniwae my new target is no less than 2A 2B n b3 for gp with no more den 3hrs of work a week

all e best to all e ppl runnin for council... yun, em, wenkien, lloyd... n everyone else :)

academic shit sucks... i want more time to play bball... to play pool... to bum wif my og... class... ppl in general... to sleep... and especially to eat haha... wish rj had better canteen food tho :P

to a certain person... it's amusin how ure tryin to pull a fast one on me... seen thru ure bluff tho... wat r u bloody intentions tho... r u coverin up for someone? do u want me to back off? pls la go abit more direct on me...

-unshackled and unfettered he seeks power sublime- 10:05 am

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Friday, April 11, 2003:

afternoon on a wonderful saturdae. sky's weepin like there's no tmr tho... perfect weather for gettin sum shuteye
haha my baby bro is dam cute... tryin to sing along to sum jap song i'm listenin to... HAHAHA

og outing yest wuz fun... met up wif hongyi n matt again... yea hongyi's hair looks gd wif hair wax man... and yours truly intro-ed him to wax lol... matt came after rugby at sajc and he wuz pretty shacked... din tok much... but of cos hongyi wuz his usual crappy self lolz... funny how e ri 8 subbers are regarded as shenz at vj...
haha n we all tricked qiuyun n matt into thinkin hongyi's at hc n not vj... :)
bus ride home on express 502 wif hongyi n gabriel gn wuz... crappy... crowded as hell... din get to sit wif e 2 of dem... :P
well so glad hongyi's happy enuff at vj... i mean he even has a new 'target'... but yea e chap's pretty laidback n adaptable... he'd prob do well aniwhere :)
thanx gabriel... it's nice to haf ppl like u ard... esp when even small things seem like a large burden yea... aniwae remember to ask ure uncle to gif discount when gefjeonn crashes his salon hahahha....

4 hrs of bball yest... damn fun... but my shooting percentages haf all plummeted much to my dismay... the key is consistency but it's pretty hard to find it... well i'm gettin better... n soon i'll gif kobe n jordan a run for their money hahaha... n dang we need more j1 ballers...

happy belated bdae howard... it's funny how ure born exactly one month after me... i think in e end we bof will be stayin in jc and not goin aniwhere else... u think? it's 70-30 for me now in favour of stayin in jc...

-unshackled and unfettered he seeks power sublime- 9:51 pm

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Wednesday, April 09, 2003:

oh hooray links r up :)

-unshackled and unfettered he seeks power sublime- 7:49 am

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real wins man u 3-1, congrats real. dey reeli deserved e win... the difference in skill between e 2 teams is so vast, i tink man u cud haf pulled off at least 3-2 tho... showed sum fluency in e later part of e 2nd half. real shens like figo were unstoppable tho. great match to watch.

back to sch todae, reeli happy bout it man. juz abt everyone's wearing rj u... but yea it sux. it's thick n makes us all sweat bleedin profusely. e shirts aren't long enuff so there's no excess to tuck out... e pants are so short tt i can see my socks when i sit down. n e company calls demselves finest fashion... *pui... haha but yea on a lighter note it's gd to see e spirits of 1so3d up :) glad e newcomers r mixing well wif us... tho i still wish we cud get qinghan edward n carissa back :(
hmm glad e j1 ballers will be bballin on sat mornin... e non sch team ppl tt is... i think we will make a great bunch and i believe if we pour our heart n soul into e game we'll give a gd showin as soon as milo championships dis yr... and considerin tt e batch below us is pretty darn gd we'll haf a shot at e title nxt yr...
we'll prob haf abt 6 ppl on sat... we shud play 3on3... e perfect chance to evaluate each others' strengths...

hmm did my hair at supercuts yesterdae... not reeli happi wif it... i'll grow it long again n dis time i'll prob go to gabriel's uncle... sum pro who trained at vidal sassoon academy in london and wella in germany

happy birthday alwyn :)

and yes thanx vincent n co for pangsei-ing me lol... u cud haf waited for me to get back from burger king...

hmm html illiteracy is gettin on my nerves... hope i'll get links up soon... wanted to put a tagboard too but they arent acceptin animore new signups :(

well tis been a pretty gd dae... i juz hope i come to terms wif crappy rj uniform :P...

-unshackled and unfettered he seeks power sublime- 7:32 am

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Sunday, April 06, 2003:

hmm my head's a little konky and off, must be my erratic sleeping and waking up times... and yes i realise that my body feels very sluggish if i sleep too much... shall put new batteries in my alarm clock

i wish i had a handphone. it's annoyin having to memorise e numbers of ppl i wanna go out wif... using 10cent coins on public phones... and frens who dun pick up if a number duzn show (no u dun get a number if ure called by a public phone). problem is i don't like asking my parents for stuff. it sucks imposing on others, especially blood relations.

haha my bro sez ocs is like club rjc... like 9 ppl from his sec4 class r in ocs... neat how ri boys will almost never be alone at the top... cos ure ex-schmates alwaes seem to be around...

juz got my response from stanford... rejected :(... haha actually i kept tellin myself while waiting for their reply tt i wudn go even if i wuz accepted... sumhow seems like cambridge medicine looks gd... so yea i'll be workin towards tt :)
surprising tho how even outstanding ppl like wong shiming can get rejected at oxford AND cambridge... weird
my bro whose 2 classmates had 3 spaper distinctions were rejected at places like princeton, harvard, yale
i mean like what do u bloody need to do to get in... haha

dang i've been doin crap dis whole yr... havent attended lectures since wk2 term1... i copy almost all my hmwork... and dang i keep forgettin to collect bio stuff from photocopy room despite bein bio rep haha... but if i still do okae on my tests den... shud be okae rite? aiya hell until i fail at least one subj i'll keep partying on i guess :)

bwahaha man u burns liverpool 4-0... n gd job on ure lousy draw arsenal... hmm hopin man u will win e premiership

-unshackled and unfettered he seeks power sublime- 10:19 am

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Saturday, April 05, 2003:

u all shud watch the recruit... pretty gd movie... "nothing is what it seems"... yea...
yet again insomnia envelopes my being and the bed and pillows no longer seem enticing. darn
final fantasy is getting repetitive... fight monster... gain exp... gain lvl... fight again... ugh
i need to play some elder scrolls rpg... morrowind! too bad my com doesnt haf a darned 3d card

anyway it felt good to have saturday free for slacking for once... no violin lesson... og outing totally rocked...

hmm so much time on my hands. i havent done much with it. i should take more time for introspection. but it's hard to disengage from my surroundings when inside me is chaos and delirium.

haha mum's been complaining bout my messy room for quite awhile... but i mean it's nothing beyond the books being off the shelves...

it's interesting hearing abt how slack ns can be for some ppl. u shud aim to get posted to signals... u juz travel wif a unit n use a walkie-talkie to report e status of e unit now n den.song bo???? my bro kena posted MP... military police... u noe dose dudes who keep things orderly durin nat dae parade haha... pretty slack i heard... like my bro gets to come home every other day.my bro is glad he wont haf to chiong sua into e jungle 5 daes a wk haha... n glad tt he's far awae from tekong... no he din kena ani encounters of e 3rd kind there

hmm love kylie's groovy tunes... esp if they're specially dj-remixed... makes ya feel like dancin... try finding In your eyes (DJ Mykeyb remix)... it's a pretty rare remix... only 2-3 on kazaa had it e last time i checked

what on earth am i meant to do
when this crowded place... there is only you
was gonna leave... now i have to stay
you have taken my breath away-ay-ayy
wu-u-u-u-u-u... is the world still spinnin' round? -spinnin around-
wu-u-u-u-u-u... i don't feel like coming down...
it's in your eyes
i can tell what you're thinking
my heart is sinking too
it's no surprise
i've been watching you lately
i wanna make it with you...

juz ask me for party music man... haf lots of it... RnB, house, dance, trance... aniting cept 80s disco remixes *puke...

hmm i shud go for a long run soon... gotta keep up my fitness... preparation for becoming a jordan/kobe hybrid shen bball player ;)

-unshackled and unfettered he seeks power sublime- 9:58 am

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Friday, April 04, 2003:

yet another day where i wake up past 1pm haha...
trudge down to e dining room to hear diabolical news... sch resumes on wed, not mon... tamade
my body has been cranky since e sars break began... can't sleep bfore 1-2am... can't wake up bfore 1pm either... congrats zhaf

hmm pool on tv rox... no correction pool rox. i'm workin towards a place in e national team. gotta work on consistency tho...

reeli want to go back to sch... n plae bball on e rj court haha... dunno it juz has a nice feel to it... i hate playin at my neighbourhood court cos e rims dun haf nets... i mean e 'swoosh' when e ball goes thru e net is bloody sublime... bball isnt complete wifout sum swoosh man...

-unshackled and unfettered he seeks power sublime- 9:58 pm

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finally after a long hiatus i'm back. remind me not to use darned opera browser to edit e blog... compatibility problems. aniwae dis has been a relatively uneventful holidae. it's rather hard to enuff ppl to go out wif u... darned sars... seriously i think we've reached new heights of paranoia. i mean out of 100 ppl who've contracted it 60+ haf recovered... pls man parents, haf a bit of confidence n let ure kids out into e world!


sum notable stuff like... at borders few daes back... reading Eat Right 4 Your Type by... dunno who... but yea look it up it's pretty revolutionary. bout how u shud tailor ure diet accordin to ure blood type. like O is e genetically oldest blood type belongin to e early hunter gatherers... so O ppl shud haf more meat (NOT no veg n fruit)... A types developed wif e advent of agrarian society... so A types ought to go vegetarian... serious! then come e B ppl... like me n everyone in my nuclear family... B is a nomadic blood type tt kinda thrives on mixed diets... n has e best tolerance to lactose in dairy products too... we shud take dairy products on a fairly regular basis... remember e most stuff abt B... like we do best wif moderate intensity exercise like... martial arts, tennis, golf... haha i shud stop bballin then (rite...)... B's haf adaptable immune systems but are vulnerable to slow acting viruses tt erode our nervous systems... aka we're more susceptible to alzheimers, parkinsons... wtf man. okae den AB... sheesh i can't remember anitin bout AB... shud go back n read e bk again... intriguing stuff tho i dun buy everythin e author (mind u he noes his biological science) sez.


hmm i've redownloaded snes emulator + roms... gettin into e groove of FF(final fantasy)-ing late into e nite... make tt mornin actually. brings back memories of p6-s1 when games took up 5+ hrs daily haha. not worried bout bein addicted tho... juz a lame alternative o bball, pool n other stuff.


hehe lost my wallet at lido earlier dis wk... damned glad it was found todae... but my 60 bux in notes gone... and so were ALL of my 10 n 20cent coins... haha... at least i dun haf to replace my ezlink card... n ya i still haf my older bro's ezlink card to get me into parties... n my mambo billiards membership card too :P


class outin at ps todae wuz pretty fun :) even tho it wuz only 8 of us... mellie, qinghan, gill, me, qiantai, julian, herman, yuhsin... n summore i missed out on e arcading cos i wuz at e mosque... :P... hmm watched juz married... movies r antisocial but yea crappin wif u all is fun... realise how much i miss juz sittin down wif my frens... n yea tokin crap :) no it's not mundane at all... aniwae thanx 1so3d for all of e yrs memories... hope our class stays intact come mondae... *prays


sorry gefjeonn... sorry matt for not goin ure hse... reeli wanted to, but yea religious lessons :( we'll see each other again yea? i'll miss u... hope u do make e most of sajc... wuz reeli hopin ure appeal wud let u stay... but yea life's lidat... hongyi too... noe u'll enjoy ureself in vj seein how e 8sub population's dere... ;)... stephen, marcus... reeli wish u all cud stay... aniwae screw moe... their bureaucratic n shitty processes. it's so dehumanising... how e jae makes us all so arbitrary... how mere numerals decide our fates... i'll miss all u 8 pters... n whoever else is leavin... even if we din rub shoulders well (you know who you are)... i think it reeli is very cruel to be wrenched from a place u've been rooted to for 3 months... not of ure own free will either :P... u all r in my prayers... dun be n a stranger n sae hi now n den yea :) n gefjeonn for dose of us who r stayin put... e new ppl too!! lets treasure our time together... time flies and 2yrs will be up bfore we noe it... SHEESH Y AM I SO DAM MUSHY... tamade... muz start swearin to restore my masculinity... lol


dam i like modjo
Lady, hear me tonight
Cos' my feeling, is just so right
As we dance, by the moonlight
Can't you see, you're my delight
Lady, I just feel like
I won't get you, out of my mind
I feel love, for the first time
And I know that it's true
I can tell by the look in your eyes


a song tt reeli means alot to me. i heard it once on late nite radio... instantly hooked (my older bro too)... when we were bof still riboys haha... me s2 he s4... wuz frantically lookin for e title... n yea rumin told me e title... Lady (Hear Me Tonight)... thanx so much rumin :) then louisa sent me e file on napster... thanks to u too :) hope ure appeal to ac gets thru... e song reeli pulls at e romantic in me haha


things... juz so different now. i dun reeli remember how i felt like in sec1-2... but sumhow i tink it wud be better den how i'm feelin now. dun reeli haf a sense of stability... mebbe tt's gd... i need to grow thru dis... i need e real deal... i need to deal wif reality... mebbe my maturin's beginnin... or mebbe not... but yea i need to grow... no i'm happy wif my height... but yea as a person... there's so much more i... n everyone can be


party at pink tmr sat nite... ac party. shud i go? rather tired. summore supp to go gym wif timtay on sun... if i party confirm shack liao lorZ!!!!!! ack regressin to ahbeng mood. erhzzz mebbe shud go n eat sushi buffet wif older bro n his ns mates... i'm e only person wif hair in e grp hahaha ;)


shit another gd song comes on... pretty commercial techno... but sumhow still meaningful to me
Reset featuring DJ Kenji - Blue (Fast Edit)
Fly high on the plane of love
I wanna show u where to go n where to stay
Baby there's no time to play
We gotta keep it up to make it right
Let's spend the nite n u will see
That u n me, r flyin high n we r free

I dunno if u can see it
But i noe tt i can feel it
Dis romance is out of order
can't u see tt i'm the lover (lousy european techno faculty wif e english lang haha)

You
i'm feelin lonely how bout u?
we will be startin smthin new
i'm goin crazy over u
come touch me baby


memories of e last months of sec4... of tt special person... thanx so much for e memories... for puttin up wif everyting. sumhow it still hurts... n i'm still tryin to forgive u for sum tings... u noe wat dey r... i hope u've forgiven me tho... cos it wuz alwaes clear i put more of myself on the line... i took e leap of faith u never dared to. i put my heart on e line... and i'm glad i did... i wish things worked out... still do... and i wish i cud go back... undo my mistakes... i wish i cud gif u tt bouquet on grad nite... i wish i din cry so much... i want it to feel tt special way... u noe when we cudn see each other... when fone n sms wuz all we had... n anticipation of e nxt contact wuz... simply... exhilarating... when we'd wish each other gd mornins... when we were privy to each others dreams, hopes, aspirations... e late nite fone calls... ure e first person i ever gaf roses... e first person to peek into e depths of my soul... if only things were better... if only e handfone fiasco never happened... i reeli need to move on... and i noe i will... slowly... glad ure in rj now yea... cud we make things work... or isit juz frenship for e 2 of us... u cud haf tried harder... be honest wif ureself... e whole thing was a labour of love for me... nvm e money spent... but e tears n e sleepless nites... i want to sae dose 3 words... but there reeli isn't ani point ani more is there? thanks for bein wif me tt nite... e bus ride nite... for bein there... thanks for everyting oh angel of light...

-unshackled and unfettered he seeks power sublime- 10:35 am

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